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September 30th, 2019
We have a very windy day so these leafs aren't gonna stay very long, thought
I'd give another photo to you from it. It's more red now.
If it were my tree I'd probably try sapping syrup from it, dunno if it would
hurt the tree though, it's still pretty young.
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What does Free Software mean to me?
September 30th, 2019
In the autumn and winter of 1995 I first installed Linux on my 486 computer.
I was living in College Residence at Humber College at the time and I had
closed myself off from friends because I, "wanted to learn UN*X" it was a
career striving. I didn't stay long at Humber College and was out of the
residence by Christmas 1995. After crashing at a friends for 6 weeks I got
a job and a 1-bedroom apartment at Bloor and Jane in Toronto. Here I
persued my MUD playing habits and I was pretty much out of it. Linux was
then not good enough anymore and I installed FreeBSD, it was spring 1996.
My brother who sometimes visited me liked playing Doom on Linux and I had
to disappoint him when I had FreeBSD installed, it wasn't the same on X11.
Anyhow that's the history of me and using Open Source Operating Systems
in the mid 1990's.
I was actively learning C then because at Humber first
semester we learned only Pascal. I had a K&R The (ansi) C Programming
Language book and it was a fairly hard read. I did this as alone so there
was no exchange of ideas and support. In turn I didn't learn to read C
much. But I learned to use a debugger and somehow compiling things worked.
I systematically learned systemcalls out of section 2 of the BSD manual over
the years and I explored the system with great interest. Important for me
to know was how the password system worked, how to do socket programming
including raw sockets which allowed spoofing. OK so I had a bit of a hacker
in me, but I never used these skills for hacking. So as the story goes it
is now 24 years later, what can I conclude?
I can conclude that having compilable open source is great to have, EVEN IF
I will never read that code. There comes situations where you're forced to
take a look anyhow, and that is when the access to the source code pays off.
99% of the time I don't read code. And in that 1% of the time 99% is spend
trying to make sense of it all. So 0.01% of the time is spent doing any
actual change. It would disturb me pretty much if for example OpenBSD said
they will keep the source code secret and only distribute binaries. It would
be the end of OpenBSD for me. Even though I don't use the source, I will want
it around.
I have several projects written in C that I share. In fact only one is
maintained by me (delphinusdnsd) and it sorta works where the others may not
work at all. But it would inconvenience me a great deal if I had to read
back all of that source code in order to find a backdoor that a hacker may
have put in. I wrote that code so I trust it. But I don't remember every
little detail of it, the daemon was written since 2005. In order to add
things to it I have to backread things too, but it usually is faster than
reading someone else's code as I have my own style.
So I have touched on
the Open Source side of Free Software but not the Free (as in beer) side.
I think software should be shared and free. This makes hardware manufacturers
the only employers for software, since everyone else relies on free software.
Obviously in todays world it doesn't work like that. Microsoft despite free
software is doing better than ever. Why that is is beyond me. Some people
still believe in Microsoft I guess and never went away. This is probably
the only reason free software hasn't killed proprietary software. I personally
think that even hardware designs should be free, but we're a long way from
that. In fact in my imaginary world of perfection people would build their
own smart phones or digital assistants if they must. Right down to the last
logic gate. It's a dream and so far from the present model that it will never
be attainable.
Today, many kids probably think the smart phone they're holding
is associated with magic. Even when told that it is a machine. Try it out
on your kid. I don't have kids, in that I can try this on them, but I think
I'm right here. The computer is magic, and it shouldn't be. If it were
not magic, on the other end of my view it is hard gruelling work to get
anything done right. In that regard programmers and hardware designers are
under-appreciated.
I would do a few things differently if I had a chance to go back to 1995. What
exactly would be different I don't know yet. I'm proud of the learning curve
I had. But I'm not proud of not being able to put up my own fixes to problems
I find with the OS. There often isn't time to get the fix done in a timely
manner, or I'm lazy at those moments. But I remember when I found a panic
condition in the radix tree of the routing lookups in OpenBSD. I found it
with a program that I had programmed in Y2K/2001 and had I not that
preparatory work with all it's demises this bug would have been found at a
much later date if ever.
Closing paragraph: I think Free Software is needed to shape the world into
something that is better than what it is today.
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The answer to Life, the Universe and everything
September 28th, 2019
Well D.N.A. (Not the double-helix, although that comes into play perhaps, but
Douglas N. Adams) was right. In his story the hitchhikers guide to the galaxy
he writes about earth being a supercomputer built by mice designed to answer
the most question of questions, the answer to life, the universe and everything.
Well I have had this question run through my head for a matter of decades now
and I think I came to a conclusion. The supercomputer (earth) is the 3rd
planet from our star, the sun. Mars then is the 4th planet and Venus the 2nd
planet. You might guess by now but the answer that the supercomputer gave
back were the position of orbits to the answer of life, the universe and
everything. 4,2.. mars, venus. Then to elaborate...I think what the super
computer wanted to say was:
Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus.
In other news... I saw a reporting from the "what da math" on youtube today
reporting that scientists think that Venus had liquid water around 250 million
years ago, but something went awry. Temperatures were modelled to be between
20 and 50 degrees celsius there. Well I'm going back to bed. Good night.
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Understanding Psychosis presentation
September 28th, 2019
I just watched Tara Niendem PhD in a talk at University of California at Davis
regarding her talk about "Understanding Psychosis" on Youtube and I thought
it was well said. Now I'm trying to remember parts of it and she said that
Psychosis
affects 2% of the population, which is higher than the 1% that I've been
learning about, maybe there is a rise? She talked about the 2 G's which
are Ghosts and Genes. She used Ghosts as an example and I found myself
shuddering at her examples of seeing ghosts. She explained someone who is
psychotic will see these on a frequent basis, not just once which is common
to happen to many. Genes, she said is that we carry 10% likelyhood of genes
having something to do with a psychosis. Interesting. I did kind of disagree
that psychosis is a solely a brain disorder because we do have a 2nd brain
in our tummies. It may not have the functionality of a full brain but offloads
it. But she's the doctor, I'm the patient.
So hats off to Tara for a great talk. I don't think she'll ever hear of me
because I have google blocked from reading this blog but who knows. We're
seperated by 6 degrees of seperation anyhow (and some say less). One more
thing I want to say about the Drug use in patients who suffer psychosis where
she said "don't do drugs" she's completely right. I've been drug free for 19
years now, where I had 1 joint or something in 2000, or thereabouts. The long
break from marijuana use has done me well I think. I hadn't had many relapses
in 17 years where I had acute symptoms of psychosis 17 years ago.
Oh yeah I was saddened a great deal by the figure that 50% of people with
psychosis attempt suicide and 10% succeed. That means out of 100 people
50 attempt suicide and 5 succeed. That's very troubling. I think I'm past
this point, I can live with Schitzophrenia well, given reduced stress
environments but I mourn every life lost to this illness. Thanks Dr. Niendem.
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I have purchased two books from Lehmann's
September 28th, 2019
One dealing with routing protocols and another with machine learning for email.
I hope this will be the last of books for the year, I'M approaching 12 books
bought, which is near the average for the past few years. If you're interested
in seeing the books I purchased see here.
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I'm back IRC'ing
September 28th, 2019
I've been back at IRC for a few days now. I finally gave in to my cravings
of using this communication tool. I think I'm still addicted to chat. But
if I didn't have this chat I would be talking to myself, which I'd rather
not. On to some great IRC'ing days!
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Psychiatric Hospitals should not be overfilled with Prisoners
September 28th, 2019
In this article (german)
(sorry I couldn't read it all due to paywall) the mainpost reports that
psychiatric hospitals such as those in Werneck and Lohr are overfilled due to
prisoners. I don't know if this is good at all. We're moving towards a
society that wants to "fix" delinquents. This is harmful to the human race.
Those that have been identified with a criminal-gene should be allowed to
live out their their lives without medications, even though their chances
of causing a criminal offense may be higher. Fix society not
those within it! The system is not perfect! So the wardens and protecters
of this system can't do this.
It's all about control, if you saw my most recent "Living with Schitzophrenia"
article. This control I dislike. I do take my pills becuase they want me
to. I'm a model schizophrenic. But wait. Am I a schizophrenic at all?
I don't hear voices, like intelligent Schizophrenics do, I only had visual
hallucinations and delusions that vampires exist. All the better for the
vampire. Germany's system has programmed us to be afraid of vampires from
an early age. The "The little vampire" books, film series and movies were
very damaging for my generation. Even I was indoctrinated by this bullshit.
This I think led to my psychosis in 2002.
As an aside did you know that the actor who played
Auric Goldfinger from the 007 film "Goldfinger" played an inspector in the
film series "The little Vampire"? Goldfinger was the one who said
"No, I expect you to die Mr. Bond" as a laser threatens to cut James Bond
apart. This has a link to my psychosis, because there is a link to my
psychosis with the "Goldflipper" release of OpenBSD. Because they told my
story so well at the right time, in a parallel universe sort of telling.
Whatever I experienced must have been orchestrated by a systemic cast, I'm
sure, unless that's a delusion. In September 2002 I was convinced I was a
spy also. Although I have no knowledge of being recruited. Perhaps it's
some MK Ultra CIA stuff.
Anyhow. Psychiatric institutions should not be overcrowded with people who
are criminals just because they have been committing a criminal act. These
were built for truely dangerous psychotics who cannot be put in with the
regular psychotic population. Truely dangerous means someone who has
violent outbursts who endangers human lives, and repeatedly, someone who
doesn't calm down and is a sheer wreck. As a teen
I've met a person who a friend of mine bought weed from who was this type
of person. We saw him be all friendly eating at Red Lobster, next thing he's
yelling and raving. He believed in the park where he tried to sell us tea were
microphones in the trees and we should be quieter (this was in 1993, so
well before this surveillance madness that we're living through today).
That was my first time dealing with someone pretty psychotic. We ended
up running to my car and getting the hell out of there. To this guys
benefit I think he tricked us into driving him to this park in north-eastern
Toronto from downtown evading having to take subway and bus. We were just a
means of getting this guy home safely and comfortably. Kinda smart in a
psychotic kind of way.
Anyhow, part of the healing of psychotic people is giving us time and space
from others. So that we really find ourselves, before being influenced by
another person. Mixing us with people who talk about the next heist they're
gonna do, or bragging what their criminal history is, is not beneficial. It
leads to bad ideas. The system can't want this!
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The domain-name bug has hit again
September 24th, 2019
I'm being asked about centroid.eu, my domain name for more than 12 years.
I don't want to part with this domain name as it is my identity online, but
if I'm made an offer of great amounts of money I will probably have to go
for it. In the meantime thinking about domains I got the domain buying virus
and purchased "mainrechner.de" which is sorta like mainframe, which is the
name I wanted to call my internet cafe and book store. That went nowhere
since someone in the city of Bremen I think has a hackerspace called
mainframe. So mainrechner is comprised of two words "Main" which is the
river that Schweinfurt (my residing city) lies on (upstream from Frankfurt),
and "Rechner" which is the german word for computer. Maybe I'll start that
internet cafe some day, at which point this domain will be used probably.
The domain cost 6.78 EUR for a year at which point I'll decide whether I want
to keep it longer.
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It is day of Equinox
September 23rd, 2019
As I write this the equinox occurs in roughly 1.5 hours at 7:50AM greenwich
time. Enjoy your day as it goes into a new season!
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