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March 11th, 2021
It's between the Royal Family and their own members. It's really a family
affair and it tarnishes the british crown. It's none of my business really
and I don't want to partake in it. Remember, the british crown is still
the richest family on earth, counting by land. Not sucking up to that, but
I feel the richer you are does not automatically make you open to all
internal problems.
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March 6th, 2021
I'm trying to figure out a root cause to what is an addiction to dopamine.
One cheap way to get a dopamine hit is to fall into a cycle of sex addiction.
Which has a negative feedback of guilt and shame and cycles back on triggers
for the next dopamine hit. On top of that I'M taking anti-psychotics which
limit my dopamine. How can I get high?
Thinking back in my life it probably all started with a depression, but I'm
uncertain there may be genetic disorders associated to that. When I hit
puberty I all of a sudden discovered this function that would immediately
give me a dopamine and seratonin boost, at the detriment of guilt and shame.
Later in life I think I developed an intimacy disorder due to this. In my
life I never had a "true" relationship, only "flings" that lasted between
one day to two weeks to six months at the most. With age and being outside
of institutionalized hookups (school is a way to bring the sexes together),
I find it increasingly hard to find a special someone to share my life with,
because of this intimacy disorder. Usually it stops at the "hello" and we
go on in our lives.
At the same time I don't really want to "use" someone just for my sex addiction
to feed my dopamine habit. People are much too special for that. So I'm
trapped in a complex cycle that grew out of times of my puberty. How can I
get back to basically starting over? It's very difficult becuase I'm a male
that is 45 years old and I carried this burden with me for more than 30 years.
It has gotten out of control to say the least.
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March 5th, 2021
The headline is actually contradictive, it is intended to be so. I don't know
much about addiction other than that I have been addicted to a few things.
Probably not substances, but computer games, networked games in particular and
social media sites such as Internet Relay Chat. I'm actually writing this after
having quit EFnet IRC network after 25 years (twentyfive years, am I writing a
cheque?). Whether I stay away from efnet remains to be seen but a few key
persons have quit and now is a good time to quit. Actually I was nudged by
efnet with a K-line (a ban) this week so I didn't feel like contesting it or
return. I just said goodbye and that's that. I do see floaters in my vision
and this bothers me very much, because I keep thinking around being a fish with
a lighted tail bent backwards before its eyes hypnotizing it. This is a fish
that was presented as art (and it is art) in the OpenBSD theme of fish in the
ocean, these fish live near the bleeding edge layer of the ocean.
The floaters in my vision I only noticed them around 2000 if I can think back
so far. I went to an optometrist who had me look into a machine that took
dimensions of my cornea. He mentioned I have a lot of ingrown blood cells into
my cornea. This is attributable to daily wearing of the Johnson and Johnson
Dailys, that I wore since the mid-1990's. The contact lenses caused a loss
of blood to the cornea region due to not being too permeable (breathing plastic)
this to me makes perfect sense that I had ingrown blood arteries into my cornea.
Since about 2002 I have been wearing glasses since my optometrist also said
I had a slight astigmatism which cannot be adjusted with contacts. However the
glasses I had then I did not like very much, I dislike the tints. My glasses
now have a blue tint making me not see indigo colours all too well, next glasses
that I get will have no tint at all anymore.
Anyhow the floaters in my eyes cause me discomfort. It would be nice to have
technology to remove them, but I doubt that exists. I'm using linkedin more
now that I have left chat media, but it's just going from one media outlet
to another. I do hope that there is an escape from this all. Really I can
do well without linkedin, other than needing a job. We'll see.
Coincindentally I was reading on Hacker News the following
article on addiction (medium.com), I only skimmed it which I often
do anyhow, but I do remember the STNG show "the game", it is featured in a
photo at the bottom, if you can see it.
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March 4th, 2021
I wrote this program called pass-calculator (gotweb) a
while ago. It's open sourced. Well I just minutely changed it to become a
shutdown program for shutting down the system in fluxbox. This prevents me
having to su to root and then type shutdown.
/*
* Copyright (c) 2021 Peter J. Philipp
* All rights reserved.
*
* Redistribution and use in source and binary forms, with or without
* modification, are permitted provided that the following conditions
* are met:
* 1. Redistributions of source code must retain the above copyright
* notice, this list of conditions and the following disclaimer.
* 2. Redistributions in binary form must reproduce the above copyright
* notice, this list of conditions and the following disclaimer in the
* documentation and/or other materials provided with the distribution.
* 3. The name of the author may not be used to endorse or promote products
* derived from this software without specific prior written permission
*
* THIS SOFTWARE IS PROVIDED BY THE AUTHOR ``AS IS'' AND ANY EXPRESS OR
* IMPLIED WARRANTIES, INCLUDING, BUT NOT LIMITED TO, THE IMPLIED WARRANTIES
* OF MERCHANTABILITY AND FITNESS FOR A PARTICULAR PURPOSE ARE DISCLAIMED.
* IN NO EVENT SHALL THE AUTHOR BE LIABLE FOR ANY DIRECT, INDIRECT,
* INCIDENTAL, SPECIAL, EXEMPLARY, OR CONSEQUENTIAL DAMAGES (INCLUDING, BUT
* NOT LIMITED TO, PROCUREMENT OF SUBSTITUTE GOODS OR SERVICES; LOSS OF USE,
* DATA, OR PROFITS; OR BUSINESS INTERRUPTION) HOWEVER CAUSED AND ON ANY
* THEORY OF LIABILITY, WHETHER IN CONTRACT, STRICT LIABILITY, OR TORT
* (INCLUDING NEGLIGENCE OR OTHERWISE) ARISING IN ANY WAY OUT OF THE USE OF
* THIS SOFTWARE, EVEN IF ADVISED OF THE POSSIBILITY OF SUCH DAMAGE.
*
*/
#include
#include
#include
#include
#include
#include
#include
#include
#include
GtkWidget *window, *label, *result, *vbox, *table;
GtkWidget *reboot_window, *halt_window, *exit_window;
static void destroy(GtkWidget*, gpointer);
static void xreboot(GtkWidget*, gpointer);
static void xhalt(GtkWidget*, gpointer);
int
main(int argc, char *argv[])
{
if (pledge("stdio rpath dns unix exec", NULL) != 0) {
exit(1);
}
gtk_init(&argc, &argv);
window = gtk_window_new(GTK_WINDOW_TOPLEVEL);
gtk_window_set_title(GTK_WINDOW(window), "Shutdown Utility");
gtk_container_set_border_width(GTK_CONTAINER(window), 25);
gtk_widget_set_size_request(window, 600, 400);
vbox = gtk_vbox_new(FALSE, 6);
halt_window = gtk_button_new_with_mnemonic("Halt");
g_signal_connect(G_OBJECT(halt_window), "clicked", G_CALLBACK(xhalt), \
NULL);
gtk_button_set_relief(GTK_BUTTON(halt_window), GTK_RELIEF_NONE);
gtk_box_pack_start_defaults(GTK_BOX(vbox), halt_window);
/* reboot */
reboot_window = gtk_button_new_with_mnemonic("Reboot");
gtk_signal_connect(G_OBJECT(reboot_window), "clicked", \
G_CALLBACK(xreboot), NULL);
gtk_button_set_relief(GTK_BUTTON(reboot_window), GTK_RELIEF_NONE);
gtk_box_pack_start_defaults(GTK_BOX(vbox), reboot_window);
/* exit window */
exit_window = gtk_button_new_with_mnemonic("Cancel");
gtk_signal_connect(G_OBJECT(exit_window), "destroy", \
G_CALLBACK(destroy), NULL);
gtk_button_set_relief(GTK_BUTTON(exit_window), GTK_RELIEF_NONE);
g_signal_connect_swapped(G_OBJECT(exit_window), "clicked", \
G_CALLBACK(gtk_widget_destroy), (gpointer)window);
gtk_box_pack_start_defaults(GTK_BOX(vbox), exit_window);
gtk_container_add(GTK_CONTAINER(window), vbox);
gtk_widget_show_all(window);
gtk_main();
return (0);
}
static void
destroy(GtkWidget *window, gpointer data)
{
gtk_main_quit();
}
static void
xreboot(GtkWidget *window, gpointer data)
{
execl("/sbin/shutdown", "shutdown", "-r", "now", NULL);
}
static void
xhalt(GtkWidget *window, gpointer data)
{
execl("/sbin/shutdown", "shutdown", "-hp", "now", NULL);
}
I run this from a fluxbox menu with a doas command since setuid programs don't
work with GTK.
permit nopass setenv { -ENV DISPLAY=:0.0 XAUTHORITY=/home/pjp/.Xauthority } \
pjp as root cmd /usr/local/sbin/x-shutdown
Happy rebootin'. It came a little late for me!
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February 26th, 2021
Recently NASA used a funky code in the parachute on Mars for the Perseverance
Rover. I spelled DARE or something in binary. But textiles can have other
indicators such as colours. For a limited time only there is a colour code
at the top of this blog (front page).
You may have noticed the line at the blog where a HR html sign was before. This
line is colour coded after resistor colours. So my resistor code is Violet, Orange, Grey, Orange,
and optionally Violet again. It spells out 7383(7) or when you look up those
letters on your household phone pad P,E,T,E,(R). I'm commander Peter a
Resistor, welcome to my unit.
I know that a student of psychiatry in Halifax once asked me "is there a certain
colour you can't see?", making me wonder if they are searching for colour blind
people. I assure you I am capable of seeing the entire spectrum of colours
except with indigo right beside violet I have trouble with. Carry on!
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February 24th, 2021
I'm astonished all the things that one needs for colonisation of Mercury are
in the Elon Musk suite of companies. Ie. Rockets and tunneling machines.
Because on Mercury you would land on a crater that has eternal darkness, which
are found at the poles. From there tunneling aparatus would be used to dig
out into the middle of the planet and hyperloops and mass drivers that
operate in tunnels to gather enough speed to lift payload off the planet.
Since Mercury has a slight atmosphere you can't just use these mass drivers
on the surface (mass drivers are like railguns). If tunnelling at quite a
depth from the surface is possible (1 km deep perhaps?), then caverns could
be erected underground that are bonded with hyperloops and that part of
Mercury is never really exposed by sunlight since it's easy to move everyone
to cooler parts with a hyperloop.
So what could be shot off from Mercury?
Raw materials to build space stations perhaps, the payload would bypass earth
and trade with Mars, Asteroid Belt, Callisto and Enceladus/Titan. What I
envision for the payload to be slung into space with the mass drivers and
there they would extract a solar sail to be pushed even faster into the
direction they're going. Another destination could be Venus where materials
are needed for building floating and non-floating cities. Perhaps Venus
could use some of the helium found on mercury, perhaps also ground stations
on Venus could use tunneling expertise. It is unclear wether Venus has life.
If it does have life that would put a damper on terraforming the planet.
Because who in their right mind wants to commit genocide on an alien species.
Mercury is on my mind lately, but so is Callisto which is the only moon of
Jupiter that humans can live on. But that's another story.
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February 19th, 2021
I will
slaugher you is the threat that the author of curl got. Curl is a utility
that is widely used in the world. A company I worked for used curl in some
components of its network. It is widely known. This is an attack on open
source and I do hope Daniel S. goes to the police to report a death threat
against him.
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February 19th, 2021
I didn't get anything done this week. I was waiting on a part to replace a
broken usb3.0 hub. I got it and stuff started working again, but the part
should have arrive here on wednesday at the latest.
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February 16th, 2021
In this article (slashdot.org) the VW CEO says he is
not worried. I think he should be. Apple has made swiss watchmakers and other
PDA makers like blackberry pretty upset and worried. I think we are in times
that a lot of key technologies are coming together. I read in popular mechanics
a long long time ago (35 years past) that cars from asia are gonna be shipped
to europe under the ice of the arctic by cargo submarines employing a MHD
drive (caterpillar drive / magnetohydrodynamic). This was a californian
fantasy since popular mechanics was a californian print. A ship with a
fusion reactor (lockheed claims they have one) could have enough power for a
MHD drive, and the route from asia to europe via arctic is short. Watch it
unfold before your eyes VW. It may happen.
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February 16th, 2021
In a month is my birthday. I'm turning 45 years old. My successes were
mediocre in this lifespan, but I have made a giant contribution by open sourcing
delphinusdnsd from day one. I'm building on top of it soon, and soon I'm going
to turn to a closed source model, and I will try to protect my contribution
against others, unless they pay me money. Hopefully what I have planned will
make me money by the time I'm 60 which is in 15 years plus a month. I need
this money in order to retire because I've never had enough money to really
invest in retirement. I'm also hoping my health will stay good for the next
15 years. So what am I working on? In the plans is something that has to do
with DNS, clusters of servers and OpenBSD. Also my work in trying to port
my G5 to OpenBSD will be contained in this. My life is getting serious, I
can't afford to take too many side roads anymore. Of what's ahead I'll maybe
talk about it some more here. On to the next 15 years!
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