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August 15th, 2016
I have lessened the surveilance on my blog by disabling a javascript pinger.
This leaves the javascript ads that I have and I'm working on disabling those
too. Basically my goal is to make it so that people can read my webpage once
and have the page idly sit in their browser without it doing any traffic in
the background (which reveals to me and any third party that the browser is
still on my site).
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New self-portrait of me
August 9th, 2016
This is me in 2016. A bit fatter than the previous years, a bit smarter
perhaps too. Although I heard that fat people have brains of skinny people
10 years older than them. So I'm not really smart.. but wise.
I just made this photo actually and touched it up with several tools, cut by
gimp.
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Psychosis: put to the test (my first psychosis)
August 5th, 2016
When I had my psychosis in Ottawa and Toronto, I didn't have too many
opportunities to hurt others.
Even though I hated everyone around me, I was curious to find the source of my
delusions. I rode my bike a lot to find the source which would have looked
like a bunch of vampires and behaved like succubi. As my psychosis continued
over time the worst shape I became. I started throwing pennies at limosines
as they were driving past me in Toronto. It was a good thing that I did not
have access (opportunity) to a firearm. Would I have used it? I don't know.
Psychosis puts you to the test on what person you are.
When that guy at the
hostel knocked on my forehead and said "this is what you're doing to me" and
implying that I was somehow knocking on his forehead with my thoughts which I
believe I was trying to do, I realised that this guy was out to screw me over.
He meddled with my mentally weakened and delusional state. And I hated him.
Had I a gun I might have shot him down. Instead I went out with my bike and
tried to forget the incident.
I'm glad that's the way I reacted because I am
not a violent person. I did see a few weird things. Like the chinese american
lady at the hostel who must have shown a blue led into her eye because her
left eye was lit blue. She tried to screw with my mind too. She asked me
several times, "what do you know?". I drew blank. Later I went with her for
a walk around Ottawa's parliament she said I was very stressed but did not
say I should get help. Perhaps she was afraid. I think I might have rode my
bike into the backyard of 24 Sussex Drive but it was open (the gates). And
somehow I ended up on the Ottawa River anyhow so I think it was just a parkette.
What else was weird. Oh yes as I was biking around a car stopped at a traffic
light and the driver opened the door and dropped something. A piece of paper.
After the car left (there wasn't many cars on the road) I went to pick up that
paper and it had a number of 5 or 6 digits on it. I drew blank again. I was
sure that it was a psychological trap to see if I'd pick it up. Someone else
was watching. But who? Anyhow I managed to do most things by myself but it
was increasingly difficult. The horror that something was terribly wrong with
me was causing tension inside me, I tried to relax. I started drawing on paper
with crayons and I did this at the airport when I left Canada that time. Being
able to leave the situation, the weird people, my delusions, my fears. I tried
to imagine that Canada was infested by vampires (part of my psychosis) and that
Europe was full of wolves based on a British guys wolf tattoo that I saw at the
hostel in Toronto.
Somehow being away gave me comfort but I was still
delusional. I was home, but in a strange land (hadn't been a resident of
Germany for 15 years prior), and I agreed to psychiatric counselling and
treatment after some time. I don't know why I needed to write this now but
it's for all those that have a psychosis and those who don't become violent as
me. Luckily I had an escape like I was told, but escapes are only needed when
your situation has no more routes to go. It should be noted I visited Canada
after that twice, and I don't think it's infested by vampires anymore luckily.
This is also for Glen Race, who I just read about in the Toronto Star.
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DSL: A question I've always wondered
August 5th, 2016
I've always wondered what takes more electricity, a DSL modem or a Fibre Optic
Transceiver. If a DSL modem or even VDSL takes up a lot of electricity then
it's a waste, and should be replaced with fibre optic transceivers.
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O Really? Do we really need NATO?
August 5th, 2016
I'm gonna keep it short. A Turkey that's a dictatorship within NATO doesn't
fit. A Britain "defending" the EU doesn't work. The continued mission in
Afghanistan serves only the Afghani security situation, o really? What we
need is a military alliance within the EU and only the EU. Some politicians
have already made that call. But keep NATO as the non-EU countries (America,
Canada, Britain, Norway), do with Turkey what you wish, it wouldn't be part
of the EU anymore.
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Ordered 4 books
August 5th, 2016
I ordered 4 books, something different from computer (programming).
- Fundamental Astronomy - Hannu Karttunen et al.
- Physics Book - Clifford Pickover
- The Math Book - Clifford Pickover
- Star Names: Their Lore and Meaning - Richard Allan
I hope these books will give me a bit of peace of mind, a distraction from
the otherwise computer life that is starting to bore me (a little). I picked
the math book for it's pictures in the preview on Amazon. I hope it's worth
it. Physics book interests me too, and Astronomy has always been on the
horizon of interesting things for me.
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If I were to vote in the US Election today
August 2nd, 2016
I'd vote Jill Stein of
the US Green Party. Perhaps lesser known than the GOP candidates, but the
Green Party has been around a long time (if Ralph Nader tells you anything).
However there is always accusations by the GOPs that parties like the Greens
take away the winning vote, I wouldn't let that deter me. I'd vote who I
want to vote for not to vote someone else out. Democracy is about pro choice
not anti choice. At least it should be so.
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Freifunk Project fail
July 30th, 2016
I had a project to give 6 routers to my neighbours. I sent them a letter asking
them whether they would like to do this, and I'd do a lottery which neighbour
in which house would get a router. All in all I intended to invest 220 euros
per neighbour that gets a router, but it didn't work. They must have thought
it was a scam. In the picture you see the red dots, that's where my project
would have been, but now I have 6 spare routers for freifunk franken that I
want to get rid of/sell. I guess mesh networks don't interest people that
aren't exactly technology freaks. It's a bit too bad.
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Did you know: DoS report law
July 24th, 2016
When you're an ISP or similar network in Germany that is under DoS,
there is a law that you must report it to the government?
No shitting you! Meldepflicht.
So if you're a source of dos yourself and you get dosed you can't vigilante
back really.
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Finally quit Twitter
July 23rd, 2016
Well I've done it. I clicked deactivate my account. 8 months of time wastage.
While I was there I also cleared my cookie history and browsing history from
the beginnning of time. This was actually all under "browsing history" in
chrome.
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